So I still don't have a job. My unemployment is almost up so I've been on pins and needles hoping to get a job. But, since losing my job I've still been on an emotional rollercoaster. But in a strange way I'm grateful for this trial in my life. It has taught me a lot about myself and it has given me an opportunity to grow. Growing spiritually and growing more in tuned with myself. If this really didn't happen I wouldn't of grown as much as I have. I do have those moments where I struggle and I seem to not be me. I do get emotional and I have learned how after an interview not to get excited. Because I know that there is someone who is better off with the position than me because of the experiences. I go to the temple once a week to help a lot and will continue to go once I have a job. I help others that have it worse than I do. I know that the Lord has blessed me with so much and continues to bless me. If it wasn't for my family and friends and the church I wouldn't know where to turn.
One of the big things in my life that the Lord has blessed me with recently is an amazing boyfriend. He's been there when I needed a shoulder to cry on. I can be myself around him and know that he still likes me even if I've done something stupid. He gets upset when I'm upset. I don't know how else to describe him. One thing that comes to mind is that he treats me like a daughter of God. I do miss him when we aren't together but I like him more and more when I'm with him. He's not perfect and has his things I don't like as much. But no matter what we are both there for each other. I don't know how else to describe my boyfriend other than that.
I know that I've said that I will get a job and I will. Hopefully before unemployement ends. My mom keeps on being herself and worries a little to much. I've tried not to worry so much and look at the positive. I've been trying to see what the Lord wants me to learn still and I've tried to learn whatever the Lord needs me to learn. I know that we are all given challenges here that the Lord wants us to face and grow from. He would never give us a trial that we can't handle. I guess there is still more to learn from the Lord. But I just feel that this is one of the big trials in my life that I personally need to learn. I hope and pray to have a job soon though. I somewhat feel that there is a job coming soon to for me.
I know that I've been really thinking about going back to college and further my education. I was thinking either something in the travel industry or even criminal law. I dunno, maybe something in business. I was thinking of getting my generals done at the U and see where things go. Maybe even study travel up at the U. Right now I'm actually leaning towards travel but with me not earning money its really hard to go back to school. But I am bound and determined to go back to school when the timing is right.
Just today after I heard I didn't get a position I just realized one thing that the Lord wants me to do. That is going back to college. Which I'm planning on doing. Maybe the Lord will give me a job that not only will I be able to grow in and learn but I can go part time to school. That I can keep my job and finances in order. I've actually set a goal once I do have a job and I'm going to stick with it. Once I do get a job once a month I'm going to sit down with my dad and discuss my finances with him. Even before I spend my paycheck. I'm going to make sure that I have enough money to do whatever I need to do. It will be tight but I can handle it.
Before I end this blog please pray for me. Pray that I can get a job and not worry about paying my bills and getting out of debt. Pray for my family. They need it! :)
